(resource - Daniel Gordis)
This is a different kind of war, and an old kind of war. In the last war, when they blew up buses and restaurants and sidewalks and cafes, Israelis were enraged, apoplectic with anger. This time, it's different.
Rage has given way to sadness. Disbelief has given way to recognition. Because we've been here before. Because we'd once believed we wouldn't be back here again. And because we know why this war is happening.
A rocket hit Haifa in the first days of the war, killing no one, but injuring a number of people. It also tore the face off an apartment building, leaving the apartments inside eerily exposed, naked, for all to gaze into. That small block of Haifa, with its shattered shell of a building, rubble all along the street, citizens dazed as they wandered about looking at it all, appeared to be exactly what it was -- a war zone.
And yet, the people in the street stayed near their homes, going nowhere. The newscaster asked them why they didn't go somewhere else, where it might be safer. One man answered with statistics. "Why leave now? We've already been hit. The chances of us being hit again are one in a million." To which another man responded almost with outrage. "What do numbers have to do with it?" he asked. And then, he turned to the camera, almost screaming, pointed to the broken building, and said, "This is our home. Mi-po ani lo zaz. From here, I am not budging." And he repeated his refrain over and over again. "This is my home. And from here, I am not budging." "Mi-po ani lo zaz."
Israelis understand what this is. This is a war over our homes. Over our homes in the north, for now, but eventually, as the rockets get better and larger, all of our homes. This is not about the territories. This is not about the "occupation." This is not about creating a Palestinian State. This is about whether there will be a state called Israel. Sixty years after Arab nations greeted the UN resolution on November 29 1947 with a declaration of war, nothing much has changed. They attacked this time for the same reason that they did sixty years ago.
At first, it was the Egyptians, Jordanians and Syrians. We put a stop
to that in 1949, 1956, 1967 and 1973.
Then it was the Palestinians, who bamboozled the world (and many of us Israelis) into believing that they just wanted a State, and that their terror was simply a way of forcing us to make one possible. We fought the terror in 1982 (Lebanon), 1987 (Intifada) and even after Camp David and Oslo, once again in 2000-2005 (the Terror War). And then, we actually tried to make the State happen. We got out of Lebanon to put an end to that conflict. And even more momentous, we got out of Gaza, hoping that they'd start to build something.
And now, it's Hezbollah. Or more accurately, Syria. Or to be more precise, Iran. What's Iran's beef with Israel? Territory it lost? It didn't lose any. And does anyone really believe that Iran cares one whit about the Palestinians and their state? That's not the reason. We know it, and so do they.
Now, the bitter reality of which Israel's right wing had warned about all along is beginning to settle in. It is not lost on virtually any Israelis that the two primary fronts on which this war is being conducted are precisely the two fronts from which we withdrew to internationally recognized borders. We withdrew from Gaza, despite all the internal objections, hoping to move Palestinian statehood -- and peace -- one step closer. But all we got in return was the election of Hamas, and a barrage of more than 800 Qassams that they refused to end.
And then they stole Gilad Shalit. Not from Gaza. Not from some contested no man's land. From inside the internationally recognized borders of Israel. As if to make sure that we got the point -- "There is no place that you're safe. There is no place to which we won't take this war. You can't stay here."
Because as much as we have wanted to believe otherwise, they have no interest in building their homeland. They only care about destroying ours.
Six years ago we pulled out of Lebanon. Same story. In defiance of the UN's resolution 1559, Hizbollah armed itself to the teeth, and as we watched and did nothing, accumulated more than 10,000 rockets. And dug itself into the mountains. And established itself in Beirut, effectively using the entire Lebanese population as human shields. And, assuming that there was little that we could or would do, it attacked on June 12, killing 8 soldiers, and stealing Ehud Goldwasser and Eldad Regev. Not from Southern Lebanon. Not from Har Dov, a tiny hilltop that's still contested.
But from inside Israel. Inside a line that no one contests. Unless, of course, they contest the idea of the whole enterprise. Which they do. And which is precisely the point. And which is why this incredibly divided and divisive society has rallied so monolithically around a Prime Minister who until last week wasn't terribly popular, and around a war that may or may not accomplish all its military objectives. It explains why, even as the air raid sirens go off across the country, and may eventually start their wail in Tel Aviv, too, as people dash across streets, panicked, trying to find the nearest bomb shelter, no one complains about the government. No one's complaining about the amount of time it's taking the air force to put a stop to this. It explains why all over this city, advertisements on bus stops have been replaced with a photo of an Israeli flag and the phrase Chazak Ve-ematz "be strong and resolute" Even the people who've lost family members, who are interviewed while still overwrought with grief , have no complaints about the government or the army. "Finish this job," they effectively say. "We'll stick it out."
But behind the defiance lies sadness, a tired and experienced renewed loss of optimism, a wondering if it will ever, ever end. Because we know what they want. It's not the Golan Heights. It's not the West Bank. And it's not a State. We know what they want, and we know why they want it.
It's sad, because deep down, people are starting to wonder. Would leaving the country altogether be the only way to get beyond their hate? We got out of Lebanon. We left Gaza. Olmert was elected after he openly declared his intention to give back the majority of the West Bank. But without intending to, we called their bluff. And now we know: the issue isn't their statehood. It's ours.
The sadness comes from the clarity. We can sign peace treaties, and withdraw, and arm ourselves. But nothing's enough. You sign a treaty with Egypt, but then Syria takes over Lebanon and uses Hezbollah as its proxy. You get peace with Jordan, but Iran joins the fray. You learn to defend your border, so they attack you from well within their countries.
It feels relentless, because it is. It feels like it never ends because it doesn't. It doesn't feel like the seventh war. It feels like a continuation of the first. Could it be that we're right back where we started?
Is this like the first war, because we could win it and still not have security? What if, as even the army says is likely, Hezbollah is left wounded but still intact at the end? What, we just wait until they decide to lob more missiles at Haifa or Tzfat, or even Tel Aviv? Bomb shelters will once again be part of the reality of Israeli kids? Have we returned to the late 40's and 1950's, when border towns had to live with the ongoing dread that Fedayeen would sneak across the border and kill people?
Except that now, in an era of missiles, most of the country is a border town.
This is like the first war because Israeli citizens, in the middle of the country, are getting killed by a foreign "army." In 1956, 1967 and even in 1973, we mostly took the war to the border. And then to their territory. Israel's civilian population centers, even in those horrible conflagrations, were left more or less intact. But not in 1948, and not this time. Haifa is the front. Tzfat is the front. Nazarath is the front. And they're all burying people. Adults and children. Jews, and Israeli Arabs. And Tel Aviv, if you believe Nasrallah, may well be next.
And it's like the old wars because all our hopes to the contrary notwithstanding, the casualties are mounting. Just days after the Israeli pundits were discussing whether or not a limited ground incursion might be necessary, whether or not the air force could do this
on its own, there are troops on the ground in Lebanon. Thousands of soldiers, the papers say this morning. And in the few days since they've gone in, kids have been coming back in body bags. These are elite units, and though we're told that they're having some successes in finding and destroying the bunkers built into the mountain, they’re encountering heavy resistance. And not all of them are making it home. We've been here before, too. We'd thought we were done with that. For the first few days of this new war, Israelis were relieved to see the footage of a hundred Israeli planes over Lebanon at any one point.
We'd show them that they'd miscalculated. We'd put a stop to this. We'd get our stolen boys back. A decisive victory, like in days of old. With fewer casualties on our side. But well into the second week of the war, we don't have our boys back. And soldiers are dying, and coming home without legs. And the victory hasn't been decisive. And Israeli cities are still being shelled, and traumatized Israeli kids by the thousands are still sleeping in bomb shelters. Just like in the first war. And it's like the first war because the news is broadcasting photos of lines of Arab refugees fleeing the fighting in Beirut, heading north, or to Syria. Israeli TV is showing footage of a former city that looks much more like Dresden than Beirut. There are probably some Israelis who couldn't care less, but the ones I’ve spoken with, do care.
And so it goes. Another all out war, when it could have been different. If they'd wanted something else. But they don't. Not the Iranians, not the civilians in Syria interviewed on CNN who spoke with admiration of Nasrallah, not the Palestinians on the West Bank who've posted his picture everywhere, and not even the Israeli Arabs in Nazareth who, from the depths of their mourning, blame Israel and not Nasrallah for the loss of of their children. So it's the seventh war (or the eighth, if you count the War of Attrition - or the ninth, if you count the first Intifada). And the first war. It's all the wars. They're all the same, in the end, because we can't afford to lose. We can't afford to lose, so we won't. We will fight. And we will win. More decisively or less, with more destruction of Lebanon or less, sooner or later, we'll win. We have to. The whole enterprise is at stake.
It's the seventh war, or the eighth. And the first. When the 1973 Yom Kippur War was at its height, Yehoram Gaon went to the front and sang the now famous lyrics, Ani mavti'ach lach -- "I promise you, my little girl, that this will be the last war." They never play that song anymore. Because no one believes it. There will be no last war. Until we hail in Mashiach.
It's the eighth war, or the ninth. But it isn't the last war. It's the first war, all over again. We've got this war for the same reason that we had all the others. We have this war for the same reason that people in Haifa are still saying "mi-po ani lo zaz." We got this war for the same reason that we got the first, and the second. We know why they attacked then. And we know why they're still attacking. And we're determined to hold on for the same reason that they're so determined never to stop. There's one reason, and one reason
only:
The Jewish People has nowhere else to go.
G-d gave us this land. “No back’s, plus tax?” Well, we’ve been paying that “tax” and will unfortunately continue to do so, until all Jews realize that He is the One behind it all.
MASHIACH NOW.
23 Comments:
I agree with the article. Israel has, and always will be, in a state of war. Pressure to be humane has encumbered Israel's retaliation and the result is more soldier's lives lost. Israel needs to attack from the air and destroy at all costs. And furthermore, they mustn't pull back early, the job must be finished off.
That's exactly right. If Israel ends too soon, it will all be for naught. Sickening, what pressure can do. What a corrupt world.
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Sometimes I think of all of our soldiers over there. Our boys, protecting our land, proudly going to the front lines to ensure that the Holy Land remains in Jewish hands.
On the one hand, I fear for their safety. Uniforms do something. (Aside from making a girl's heart fly.) They give the person wearing it a sense of pride and responsibility. So though they are in the throes of danger, with enemies lurking at every turn, they have waited for so long. They are ready to fight. Itching to fight. And fight they will. Bravely and heroicly.
Chayalim, ani itchem. Milev echad lasheni.
May G-d guide you and protect you. Make us proud, but come home safely.
B'ahava,
Achotech
Point is, and I'm admittedly no military expert, but I firmly believe that the soldiers shouldn't have to fight. Why should Israel suffer loss of life when it's perfectly capable of destroying enemy positions from the air... even at the toll of civilian life in Lebanon.
I know you said ur no militant expert, but do u know for fact that Israel has that capability?
Also, I wonder if the Lebanese civilians/government is responsible for harboring the enemy...
"but I firmly believe that the soldiers shouldn't have to fight"
nemo? really? fighting from the air is still fighting- and still can result in tragic loss of life, as we have seen in the last few weeks. you cant fight a war without soldiers, even in an exclusivly airborne attack like u suggest.
and yoniqua- the Lebanese people have elected a government which dominated and controlled by Hezbolah terrorists. so the answer to your question is both.
GRAJEE
i miss u so freakin much whats ur deal?!
thanks for visiting again.. not quite the same as fighting for wireless connection together...along with the cats, the stray dogs, the delicious smelling dumpsters, and the shomer locking up... but im happy to hear from you again!
I think that wishful thinking is all were trying to do here. besides, what we say doesnt affect how they perform over there anyway. we think, oh ya make an air raid and poof theyll all be gone and we can all go home to bed. soldiers too. but its not like that. this is real. and this is scary. its war.
come back, graj. what are u doing?
i cant even write to u on ur site CUZ U DELETED IT. youre gonna get it this time!
thanks for the article, yoniqua. i kind of don't feel anything anymore - i'm like immune to this insanity and thats horrifying
My point is that infantry shouldn't be sent in to fight, risking countless lives, to attack objectives which can be hit by the air or artillery fire.
Shevi - hey where r u?
thanks for checkin in...
Nemo - i understand what ur saying... BUT
theres no way to fight a war without soldiers. if so, we should be very afraid. also, do u know how good this war is for israel right now? its a shame that this is what it takes for one Jew to get over his hatred for another's beliefs.. makes me sick. but ya know what? its about time..
and ya know something? its good for the morale of the ppl AND for the soldiers. so there'll be a baby boom. And the soldiers are so psyched to fight! theyve been itching to kill Arabs.. y not the Hizbula? believe me, theyre proud and ready to pick up their rifles and shoot. Kill them, baby.
ok i know thats not the point. but right now thats what its gotta be.
It pains me to read this, I've never been a history fan but now even less.
It's just too painful to read.
Mashiach now!
yoniqua- that is truly an inaccurate representation of the current atmosphere in Israel right now. in this war, as in every war, there are casualties- young lives lost, and it hurts the entire nation.
It is not WAR the people want, but rather, the results it will hopefully bring; namely, peace, and security.
Your comments could easily be misconstrued, and moreover, appear to be of a similar style to that of the terrorists. Why then are they any different than us? Indeed, your comments could easily been the words of an Muslim extremist:
"And the (Hezbollah) soldiers are so psyched to fight! they've been itching to kill (Jews).. believe me, they're proud and ready to pick up their rifles and shoot. Kill them, baby. " you see, you would read that statement in horror and disgust- brand them terrorists and pronounce them the enemy of the world..
The difference between the terrorists and Israelis is that the terrorists want to KILL INOCENT ISRAELIS- they don't care for the war in itself, their only objective is to instil fear, inflict pain and murder as many Jews as they can- and ultimately destroy the entire country.
Israel on the other hand, has a clear and fair rational- they are defending their right to exist as a country, and protecting the security of their people- in order to accomplish they need to disarm Hezbollah, and if, unfortunately, it takes the lives of innocent Lebanese civilians on the way, then that is the price that has to be payed. because in war, there are always casualties.
anywaysss sorry for going on.. i just think you have to be careful. there has to be a difference between us and the Arabs.
take care, easy fast, and moshiach now :-)
Hey yoniqua,
wow, you really spent time on this one. I want to thank you for calrifying all those points about what exactly is goin on etc...i was so confused about that.
All of this is outrageous and horrifying, even more so since theres no action we can take. Its like we're watching all of this unfold in front of our eyes,and we cant change or help the situation at all, its helpless. 'course we daven and give tzedakah for the safety of our brothers, the soldiers etc..but i wish there was something more...each day we wake up to hear more horrifying new- we were just there this year! we were in tzvat-walking down the streets, carefree-and now its being bombed, people are living in shelters...can this really be happening? On one hand its like finally israel is fighting back! but, then again-look how its destroying our land, our home. Remember the song in sem" this is my home, this is my mother land, this is the place where i long to be..." The only thing we can do is hope and pray to hashem that he'll finish this off once and for all, and bring moshiach!
prag - welcome!
graj - inaccurate representation? Those are facts, dont know about representation if its based on fact!
I understand what you mean about what you quoted from the post. I am really referring to the soldiers who really are all for protecting their people, fighting for their rights as a nation with a country, and their own land. Check out this sadly very true drawing: http://www.jewlicious.com/wp-content/uploads/ck/saysitall.gif
You will find that it very clearly defines the difference between the motives of an Israeli Jew fighting, versus the Hezbollah. Check it out.
You are right. I'm sure that even though people are saying "we want war," what they really want is the outcome, that should please G-d come swiftly, safely, heroicly, and victoriously.
So is it true that the current atmosphere in Israel right now is one of love and kindness? I'm talking - real love between all Jews no matter if they are dati, chiloni, tziyoni, chareidi, dati leumi, etc? Especially during the three weeks, it'd be nice. And especially since 'sinat chinam/baseless hatred' is what brought about the destruction of the Beit Hamikdash. Yeah, it'd be nice if there was more love.
Hey, thanks for coming by my blog- your post says it all- Hezbollah got it all wrong- by attacking Israel in such a flagrant way, they completely unified us in Israel and in the Diaspora- they don't have a chance.
In answer to your question about how I got involved in volunteering for the the IDF through Sar El the short answer is that I saw a guy at an JCC event in a Tzahal uniform doing some recruiting. It took 8 years but I finally went.
L'hitraot!
i wasnt talking abt the article i was talking abt ur comments
amishav - welcome! And you're right about that. They may be trying to divide and conquer, but no matter where we jews are, we are united. Sar El means officer of G-d I believe.. haven't read your whole blog where u may have mentioned what that is.. what is it and how might someone get involved?
fraids - welcome to my blog finally. i know uve been sneaking lil peaks, but its nice that u finally left ur mark! Love ya - gimme a call.
graj - gotcha. ok.
can u plz get an american number?
yoniqua, this is clearly written, the Post, and clearly goes to the root of the problem, the history of the root of the problem in modern times is emphasized, you have written a great and truly literary piece.
I wore a uniform in a war that had no depth of root, only surface gains and little results outside of that were ever possible, Vietnam.
These, your boys and girls, wear one for these deep reasons you give, they are full of purpose and right in their will to fight and gain. You are right in all that, I believe you when you say they have the emotion too, good for them, good for Israel, good for the People thruout the world.
Unification thruout the world is involved and will benefit, hopefully the devisiveness within Israel will not diminish that, Olmert has recanted his rash and harmful statements as to the 'use' of the war.
I agree with grajee about your comments tho, to much like the enemy, tho I know exactly why you said them and I know and feel the need expressing itself there, that the need is pure and G-dly. I admire you for them, but they are to me a bit 'dangerous' sounding.
This is what I meant when I said I have had to become sensitive to 'Jews', both in what I say offending them and causing division, but also in what I say being misconstrued by non-Jews, and thus casting Jews in a bad light, a harmful light. My interests are in Jews gaining Peace, not dominating their enemy.
In my case my problem is that I am not or was not a 'raised' Jew, I am very ignorant of the subtle nuances that are taught/learned thru life, a life of many years of actually being a Jew and dealing with the real world in that regard. Lacking that, in everyday things as well as in Kabbalah and Chassidic matters, I have to hold back, be more restrained, even silence myself in favor of 'gain' relative to root cause and the root problem. Jews do what they do more 'instinctually', I do not have that to be with me, not yet anyway. I have to walk a very fine line in defending Who I love, lest I hurt my Love inadvertantly, yet I try to speak and speak loudly and bravely, it is difficult.
I even want to say that the clarity with which you have shown the plight and the righteousness of the whole situation, because you have done such a wonderful job at this Post and your learning and understanding are excellent, I want to say that every one in the world should read it, should read it because they will 'see' and then 'understand', and that is half the problem, most people are ignorant of the truth that you shed light on here in your Post.
But that wouldn't work, not for a non-Jew reading it, not unless that person was already open to understanding and truth. The sad reality is that most are not so. For many reasons, most people, individuals who read, in the world, are not able to overcome their 'programing' of decades and of centuries, sorrowfully, that is true 'out there'. It speaks to me, a non-Jew, but most people I know personally would not be able to understand or agree with it, they would fall immediately into their rote 'knowledge' of bull and lies and illusionary realities, they would not 'see' it.
Perhaps the Moshiach has to deal with just this problem? That of the psychology of the world, not only of Israel, not only of 'Jew'.
I know, perhaps you know, that the Torah contains within it the very structure of the 'perfect' and 'most human' psychology of the creature 'man', Adom. Perhaps you know that the Jew has absorbed that psychology better and more fully than all other people in the world. I think that the reason for the spread of the Torah thruout the world in the guise of other religions, even tho distorted by thier interps, is for the very reason of elevating all peoples to a higher level of that 'perfect' psychology. I think that the Moshiach will thus have this as his primary focus, the state of the psychology of the world population. Thru that he will deal with and solve this root problem that you so clearly display in your Post.
Do you know or accept the point of view that there will be first the Moshiach Joseph? And then David?
Could it be that, as Moshiach Joseph is to be first and make the place for Moshiach David, that this has to do with this war this moment in time? Could it be that a new 'exodus' is about to begin, not out of a country but into the nation of Israel? Could it be that this moment in time is that beginning 'urge', that initial 'awakening', Hope springs eternal perhaps?
I don't want to influence you, I am not anything that should be teaching another, especially a Jew.
But Hope is in order for all Jews everywhere and it is being more loudly expressed and this is great to hear, but we have to be sensitive to the realities of us all, all in our different places and circumstances, even for instance the Jews who are now in Iran.
Or am I being too cautious? Am I being a coward? Am I actually doing the opposite of what I want to do? I know I have to be careful.
This is long, a long comment, but I hope you will not be offended by it in full or in part. Delete it if there is any problem, I will not be offended if you do, I will continue to enjoy your work, your Posts.
Thanks.
Jim - I really appreciate your comment. Thanks!
The bulk of my post is taken from the author I credited at the top.
It is brilliant. I, too, wish that I could somehow shar this Truth with the world, though it seems as if everyone has their own bright ideas.
In the time being, I will do my best to affect those around me. And whoever stumbles upon my little blog here.
I never thought to compare this war with Vietnam at all. Probably because I do not know much about the morale of that time. I'm nineteen...
At first I had the impression that you were actually Jewish, and then you stated that you are not. How do you have such a clear understanding of the Jew? I am curious.
Yoniqua, Difficult to say, I have some 'feeling sense' of being Jewish perhaps Romanian Gypsy descent but that is totally not knowable and but a small thing anyway. Early in life as a 6-12 yr old child I enjoyed the frequent company of Jewish children and families and their social/religious life, but I didn't 'study' them, lol, played, we were children then.
16-18, I was befriended by a Jewish business owner and treated son-like, but the draft for Vietnam interrupted that, I didn't learn much Jewish from that.
I really wasn't comparing the war of then with this thing now, just the concept of 'uniform' and its' value and meaning in light of the 'why'. Mine was not a worthy symbol, but like you say this now thing is worthy, I would wear one, I would be 'gung ho', but not for the other, I was not.
I was in Europe 3 years, Germany near Ulm/Munich, traveled to Dachau, had a very deep experience that was 'Jewish'.
Then later as a Professional Artist, Jewish institutions, community centers, gallerys, and so on, were more willing and ready to help me than any other, I received great encouragement from them and many exhibitions and they helped in my career.
Later I had occassion to have a deep dream, cholem, in it I met HaSHem, Moshe, and Moshe read the Torah to me, I SAW his voice reading, I saw the letters and thier behaviour and so on, I then learned from that via an Angel that I was given to teach me.
That is absurd, ignore it, it is not an acceptable explanation, it is merely subjective and so on.
I learned Hebrew to read, not speak, I learned to work within the text of Torah specific to Bareshis, and have been for near 25 years. During this time I had a 'realization' an 'catharsis' that 'explained everything' in my life, lol, I was Jewish, Man what a day, Bar Mitzvah, very late in life.
Studied what I could of a Jewish lady w/website in Belgium, learned and so on, but not Judaism per se, and not from point of view of Mitzvahs, and dailies and weeklies etc. So I am very deficient in the whole thing, very not a Jew, very suspect too because of earlier Christian pollutions in my thinking and understanding, having to undo much errant 'seeing'.
So I am not a Jew but I am but I am not, finally I have to simply say I have applied for conversion and it is supposedly in process but is not certain, it is not easy, and I have many personal age-related obstacles to deal with.
That is it basically, Spiritually a Jew for sure.
Thanks for being interested, sorry for the length and you time, I know your time is valuable. Take care of yourself and keep your studies well. Also good luck with the music thing.
Ahah! Now I understand! You are applying for conversion... That explains things a lot. Well, good on ya for connecting with your inner self and really trying to do your best. We each have our mission in this world, as either a Jew or Gentile, and we all have a purpose. Whether or not you convert to Judaism, G-d created you with a purpose. The challenge of the human being is to tap into our essence to recognize that their is an Ultimate Purpose. The hard part is following through.
I wish you the best of luck in your mission on this earth.
And you say you had a vision...What does G-d look like? What does Moses look like? How does his voice sound?
Very cool... :)
I am amazed, no one asked me that before yoniqua, lol.
HaSHem I did not see face to face, He was above and laughed greatly at my fear of my circumstances at the time, (they were extreme, deadly, worse than deadly), I had just fought to the end of my bodys strength, soaked and totally exhausted, throughly in great muscular pain, I was to be the loser, but not by giving up.
His voice was Hugely Powerful but gentle and absolutely assuring, upon the beginning laugh, all emotion dissipated as the enemy fled instantly before His Presence. His laugh continued a few seconds, my whole body relaxed completely and the exhaustion was gone, the pain was gone, I was more calm and certain and knowing than ever in my life before or since. His Presence did that, plus the laugh and the Absoluteness of His voice. There were NO questions, all was known instantly.
He spoke and described my predicament as my doing, He told me it was not within my power to undo it, but that He could and He would, if...
if I would do certain things with a certain Book, He included the details I am skipping over here. Of course, I agreed, but I was in the free will to decide, even tho the refusal would have left me unfinished or undone to some extent.
I agreed and the deal was made and an Angel approached me and took me with him to Moshe. Moshe was inside a bldg, an ancient office filled with tables and surfaces stacked with scrolls and books, all in various states of open and closed, all within his reach. The Angel and I stood at the doorless doorway, the Angel stayed on this side, I went in and stood in front of Moshe, he was sitting with a scroll reading, looked up at me, laid down the scroll, picked up another one that was already opened and stood up and read from it to me.
Out of his mouth, a voice gentle and soft, issued the sound but more than that, yoniqua, out of his very mouth came letters and words and sentences. They were alive in their beings, each moving independently but knowing its' place in the whole, each in its' place and the words were there and they all 'floated' in the air between Moshe and myself. They hung there, they hovered there, they were not lifeless and suspended but alive and as if 'flying' yet in their formation.
I could hear and as I heard I saw the words spoken and the letters and their movements with each other. But there was more, there was meaning with them. Meaning was arranged around them and between them and among them. I peered closely as I listened to the sound and saw the way the meaning was formed and made and stood, it was in 'notations' all around the letters and words.
This continued awhile and he finished, the spoken material was between us, the living communication was both heard and seen simultaneously as he read from the scroll.
At that time I had never heard of Hebrew, never seen it, didn't know a thing about the Torah or bible, hadn't read it or studied it. My family owned one but it was not used until late in my early life and then it was not sacred or special or even respected. I had hardly no connection with it at all.
After that, things changed, everything changed for me. And I am still doing what I was given to do, still doing the deal I made with the Book of Bereshis.
But that has had no outward manifestation, no public function has ever been necessary, I am not sure that what I am doing with the blogs is necessary. The 'deal' doesn't seem dependent on anything but something I do in the Text itself. I have a tendency to want to keep that a secret, partly because I have been ridiculed for it.
How did Moshe look, he looked like a Jew, the Hasidic Jew, but he was neither young nor old, he was dressed in a shirt that might have been long like a robe but I didn't look at him to that extent, the shirt was plain and merely functional, not dressy nor new-like, just functional. His beard was kept, not disordered, likewise his hair.
Weird huh? lol. Forgive me the space and time of yours I am taking. It is a pleasure talking to you about it. But that is enough I think. Just my deal, no big deal but for me. No doubt it is all unnecessary and preferably avoided.
I read your latest Post a bit ago and I hope you get past that, life has many occassions of confusions in communications, you learn as you go. Good luck with your job.
G-d bless you.
How lucky you are.
If only we were all so privileged... You must be really holy!
In spite of how it might sound, (I don't mean it to sound 'special', it is just a simple thing, no effort on my part, something to do with things outside my control), I hardly think 'holy' is a word that applies to me, I am really very bad. And very wrong mostly, And very confused mostly. I do the best I can, but 'holy', not in a normal sense, no. In terms of 'memory' and 'will', perhaps a bit, 'holy' can include that.
Thanks, good luck with the marriage posture. I agree with you on all points you have indicated, I am really not very qualified tho for an opinion.
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